Thursday, April 24, 2008

230th entry>when can i stop

When you deem I'm not thinking, when you deem I'm having fun, when you deem I'm not involving everyone, I did. And I truly did.

Not to glorify things, I've been trying to bridge all the broken links. Who actually bothers to step in and cooperate? Its always 'ME' 'ME' and 'ME'. Who can be the first to appear and say "WE"? Everyone has their own weaknesses. We can't expect us to be alike. I am very sensitive about things that people say, but are you all the same? Even if we're not talking about differences. If, I can put myself into your shoes and think from your point of view, does that mean, everyone else can too? Apparently I know of many who don't. So since there's nothing perfect in this world, what do you expect? Tell me, how well do you know me, when you can't even see the effort I'm putting in to pull us all back together. I'm having a hard time absorbing the messages you've sent me. Okay. Maybe its bcos I overly sensitive. But I really felt that all were more than plain rantings. I AM TRYING VERY HARD TO READ FROM DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE so that what the msges will appear as rantings.

I still have heartless friends. A little bit disappointing eh? Friends who didn't realise that there's some people missing from the big crowd, and didn't bother calling. Friends who still cam-whored when I purposely said that they are heartless and sat away from them. My actions are apparently not big enough. Oh whatever let it be. Do it one more time, I'm really gonna scold you all on the bus. TRUST ME I WILL.

I don't know why I'm being so depressed when I know this is beyond my control. But I just somehow feel that I should do something about it.

Interview at DHL industry tomorrow. WTH I have no idea how to go. So I think I'll give it a miss.

And everyone! Please start to be more sensitive to your surroundings. Stop including just yourself and a few others and leave out some. Its not only rude, but very disturbing.