Thursday, September 22, 2005

59th entry>shakespeare

sunhearts

[letter]
"There was never man so notoriously abused." -Twelfth Night

this line was by Puritan Malvolio. never will i thought i could use this line. we sympathesize with him at this moment because the trick was carried out too far. the torment that Malvolio suffer hear reduces the non-symphathy that we have about him before this scene.

and now its me. i've been notoriously abused. still remember the times we spent together in sec 3. how we shared the same interest in ball games especially. though this mite be the only small little things that we share, is it that we are to ignore one another? ha. wad a weird world.

i noe other than "lets go out play ball"-talk i can have with you, we dun have the same interest--reading fantasy books, reading all the funny chinese fantasies like 'chi zi cheng long' or 'shen diao xia nu' or maybe even liking the same character in the 'chi zi cheng long'. have i not be trying to accomodate you and try to learn more things about u. ok. this is the way to survive in this world i guess. sacrifice my own loves and 'learn' yours. i dunno. i'm not selffish by doing this i hope.

but you just cant seem to see the effort put in to maintain this good frenship. i din not say i want you to stay by my side forever nor did i say u can never tok to other person on this wide world but me and me only. but you TOTALLY ignored me. ppl mite be thinking. wad am i writing? a love novel uh. but seriously u treated me like a total block of ice. or glass. transparent. not even translucent.

i was thinking wad would my birthday pressie be from u. n i was hoping you would just tok to me more often. i dunno. mayb this is a lot from u.

but u can ask urself. u have been ignoring me for the past 2 weeks. other than "are you playing maple story" we seem to have nothing else to tok abt. u ask me to help u get back the 3k, not like i din try to help. but i couldnt

today's incident realli showed the ge he between us. u were happily toking to someone else, i thought u mite get quite high. i ask u, u dun say, den how i now how much u get. i din get A1 i oso veh sad and disappointed one rite. i try to ask u but u just ignore. its ok, den i dun ask. not like i'm insensitive and asked you thousand of times. i was guessing u mite be sad. ok. den i help u get ur scores. wad did u say? nothing. not even the politess thing on earth--thank you. ok. den i ask u are u playing ball. u ignored me. den go downstairs complain. by the look of the angry joanne's face, i noe its abt me. but i just happily walk past. i was trying not to be insensitive. everybody around me got 80 plus marks la. u tink i not sad not angry meh. shi rong was disappointed with her performance and she got 88. ruo lin oso but she got 85. rem we were working veh hard in class rite b4 the exams, discussing all the prokofiev's life and all. we work so hard. u think i not sad. i dun even noe u got lower. if i noe i sure console u one wad. its just whether u wan to accept this or not. but u din care.

i dunno. maybe for the following months left in 4D u will still ignore me, but i hope u will not. its onli 3 more months and i'll get completely out of ur way. i hope this is not a lot to ask from you, afterall we were frens. its a matter if we still are frens. and i wan to maintain this good frenship. hope you dun leave me out of any fun!
[end of letter]

gotta go. fa xie wan bi!